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To Be Blind

It was interesting…I came into the prayer room after having lunch and being in the office doing some Administrative work. I decided to pace for a bit and clear my head from everything. I usually pace a bit here and there and have my eyes fully closed, but frequently half open so I may see where I’m going; you know, make sure not to bump into that wall, chair, human being…that sort of thing.

I started pacing behind a row of chairs. No ones sitting in them. I graze my hand back and forth the top of the chairs that sit side by side like militant soldiers.

The worship is playing, the atmosphere is becoming more infused for me because I’m letting go every worry, every stress, every thought that isnt just about my God and His faithful beauty and love. I even laugh at a thought I have in silliness cause I know He delights in me and enjoys me.

pace….pace…pace…the palm of my hand cupping gently the tops of the chairs as I use them as my guide with my eyes have opened, half closed, then fully closed.

I begin to think of the blind. I close my eyes tightly and just use my hands to guide my pacing. My right hand cupping the tops of the chairs as they lead me forward, then I can feel the end of the last chair in the row. I grabbed it less gently now as I feel my body wanting to continue by pulling forward but I turn myself around. Now continues my left hand cupping and grazing the chair tops, leading me back and forth, back and forth.

My eyes are tightly closed and I feel the insecurities. I can feel the anticipation of when the end of the row will be. Trying to just pray in the Spirit, I continue but start feeling the doubt in my simple surrounding. I question my walking, my stepping forward, I question whether I will react quick enough to knowing when the end of the row has come. I stretch my arm out a little further, wanting to make sure my hand gets to the end before my body does.

I think of how difficult must it be to be blind. How about to have seen and then at an older age past your 20’s, 30’s loosing your sight. You’re not as trainable as a child. We’re stuck in our ways and systems and now all of that is gone. I began to pray for those who are physically blind…over and over I said to the Lord, “Give sight Lord to the physically blind…give sight to the physically blind…”

Then I felt the Holy Spirit just challenge me with a whispered question, “What if it benefits some of them to be blind. They aren’t tempted with their eye gate as much as one who has sight possibly…they perhaps trust and have greater perspective?”

I felt to stop asking and think about instead, spiritual blindness. “Is this like spiritual blindness Holy Spirit?”

I continued, back and forth, back and forth, eyes tightly shut. Thinking I had a rhythm going and then I miss the last chair in the row and almost topple over but gain back my composure and continue back and forth.

The shadows and light just a hazy sense of it blanketing my shut eye lids…different shades, intensities, brightness, darkness.

Now my back and forth is all I know. But I know the space I’m in, I know this room. I know that at the end of the row to my right there’s a wall going into the kitchen and at the other end is the sound booth. I know my space but would I be confident if I let go of this now familiar row and explore…Explore what I technically have access to due to a year of being in this one room?

I could feel the chairs. I could feel the end of the row. THAT I knew. THAT I was confident in…kind of…If I would let go, there would be nothing else I would be confident in, even though I have been in this room for a year now and could map it out in my head with my eyes closed.

To be blind…

It was an interesting thought as I paced back and forth with my eyes tightly closed this time.

Spiritual Blindness…how it hinders us from living. The doubts, the insecurities, the false perception of things, the lack of knowing our circumstance, surroundings. How we cant even see the joy of Someone smiling back at us. All is assumption…

that’s Food for thought…

Enlighten the eyes of our understanding Holy Spirit, shine the light of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ over our minds and spirits today! Amen, so be it!

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In the Name of Jesus…VOLUME II

Continuing my quest to gain language for something I believe in, I found another couple of blog others have posted online that have already written for the most part the blog for me. Giving credit where credit is due.

My last post was bought about from a question a fellow believer asked some of us that was worth searching out. In my heart and spirit I knew there was premise for it but I am not a great teacher, preacher who can memorize the entire bible and holds their own in great debates.

Still gaining in language and understanding, I do know when I get those impressions from my faithful friend Holy Spirit whose molding and teaching me to be like my great love Jesus Christ day by day till I awaken to His likeness. (Psalm 17:15)

 

 

 

 

Here’s what someone posted about praying in the name of Jesus…

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“What does it mean to pray in Jesus’ name?”

Answer: Prayer in Jesus’ name is taught in John 14:13-14, “And I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Son may bring glory to the Father. You may ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it.” Some misapply this verse, thinking that saying “in Jesus’ name” at the end of a prayer results in God’s always granting what is asked for. This is essentially treating the words “in Jesus’ name” as a magic formula. This is absolutely unbiblical.

Praying in Jesus’ name means praying with His authority and asking God the Father to act upon our prayers because we come in the name of His Son, Jesus. Praying in Jesus’ name means the same thing as praying according to the will of God, “This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. And if we know that he hears us—whatever we ask—we know that we have what we asked of him” (1 John 5:14-15). Praying in Jesus’ name is praying for things that will honor and glorify Jesus.

Saying “in Jesus’ name” at the end of a prayer is not a magic formula. If what we ask for or say in prayer is not for God’s glory and according to His will, saying “in Jesus’ name” is meaningless. Genuinely praying in Jesus’ name and for His glory is what is important, not attaching certain words to the end of a prayer. It is not the words in the prayer that matter, but the purpose behind the prayer. Praying for things that are in agreement with God’s will is the essence of praying in Jesus’ name.”

<end quote> http://www.gotquestions.org/pray-Jesus-name.html

Also the “Amen” part. I wanted to research this out. I knew it was a prophetic release declaring “So be it!” Here’s a small post I found by the same sight on using “Amen” in prayer:

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The Hebrew word translated “amen” literally means “truly” or “so be it.” “Amen” is also found in the Greek New Testament and has the same meaning. Nearly half of the Old Testament uses of amen are found in the book of Deuteronomy. In each case, the people are responding to curses pronounced by God on various sins. Each pronouncement is followed by the words “and all the people shall say Amen” (Deuteronomy 27:15-26). This indicates that the people applauded the righteous sentence handed down by their holy God, responding, “So let it be.” The amen attested to the conviction of the hearers that the sentences which they heard were true, just, and certain.

Seven of the Old Testament references link amen with praise. The sentence “and all the people said, Amen, and praised Jehovah” found in 1 Chronicles 16:36, typifies the connection between amen and praise. In Nehemiah 5:13 and 8:6, the people of Israel affirmed Ezra’s exalting of God by worshipping Him and obeying Him. The highest expression of praise to God is obedience, and when we say “amen” to His commands and pronouncements, our praise is sweet music to His ears.

The New Testament writers all use “amen” at the end of their epistles. The apostle John uses it at the end of his gospel, his three letters, and the book of Revelation, where it appears nine times. Each time it is connected with praising and glorifying God and referring to the second coming and the end of the age. Paul says “amen” to the blessings he pronounces on all the churches in his letters to them, as do Peter, John and Jude in their letters. The implication is that they are saying, “May it be that the Lord will truly grant these blessings upon you.”

When Christians say “amen” at the end of our prayers, we are following the model of the apostles, asking God to “please let it be as we have prayed.” Remembering the connection between amen and the praise of obedience, all prayers should be prayed according to the will of God. Then when we say “amen,” we can be confident that God will respond “so be it” and grant our requests (John 14:13; 1 John 5:14).” <end quote>

http://www.gotquestions.org/amen.html

“It is the glory of God to hide a matter, and the glory of a king to search it out” Proverbs 25:2

1 Corinthians 2:9-10

“but as it is written: Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, Nor have entered into the heart of man, the things which God has prepared for those who love Him”!

Aren’t you curious! The Genesis 1 Uncreated God of all creations has things prepared for us who love Him and He’s telling us we can’t even fathom it! It would blow our minds and yet, He sent His promise, Holy Spirit to not dwell just WITH us anymore but dwell IN us!

verse  10 “But God has revealed them to us through His Spirit. For the Spirit searches ALL things, yes, the deep things of God.”

Just so He can reveal them to us. Search out the word! Dont just memorize theology but in prayer and intimacy talk to Him, ask Him for understanding.

Joshua 1:8 “This Book of the Law (now through the unveiling on the cross-the entirety of the Word which is truth) shall not depart from your mouth, but you shall meditate in it day & night, that you may observe to do according to all that is written in it. For then you will make your way prosperous, and then you will have good success.”

Jesus came for many reasons but I will highlight that He came to deal away with religion and get to the heart. He came to “offend minds to reveal hearts” and demonstrate that everything is considered in regards to the intentions and attitude of one’s heart. (He spoke about this even way before His first coming-just read David’s psalms and quotes) “Consider your ways!” (Haggai 1:7)

In the end, there is so much about this Man we need to know. This morning, I heard a man, his name is Daniel Lim speak on Revelati0n 1:8 Jesus is speaking to John in the island of Patmos saying “I am the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End,” says the Lord “who is and who was and who is to come, the Almighty.”

<you can check out the teaching from the webstream archives here http://www.ihop.org/weekendservices/archives/  -Should be available if not tonight, then possibly tomorrow.>

Christology should be daily our Bible Study. We do not know this Man Jesus! The greatest theologian I can almost confidently say, does not know Jesus! He is the least spoken about subject in the body of Christ…what is that!? We know a little about the Jesus who was, we like the Jesus who is cause it’s kinda always about us isnt it? And we know NOTHING about the Jesus who is to come.

Why? Because Eschatology, End Times teaching is a taboo in the Church of America (I cant speak for other nations). The world is fascinated with Eschatology-

Definition of ESCHATOLOGY

1: a branch of theology concerned with the final events in the history of the world or of humankind

2: a belief concerning death, the end of the world, or the ultimate destiny of humankind;
But are not searching out Christ centered truths about it. Movies make end of the world scenarios all the time. Now with this year, 2012 here we have the Mayan Calendar debacle. We have seen for years tons of writings and TV series on Nostradamus. The world is fascinated and as followers of Jesus Christ we have nothing to offer and bring to the table in regards to the Truth of the End Times. Jesus while on earth spoke most about the generation before His second coming and taught the signs of the times and what the great destruction would be like.
Read Matthew 24-25, read Luke 17:1-18:8 -Just a start…then of course we have the book of the prophets who spoke on it i.e. Daniel chapters 9, 10, 11 and we have the great big “bad” book no one wants to talk about…Revelation.
Interesting enough, Jesus is the least spoken about subject in the American church and the taboo book in the body of Christ is the “Revelation of JESUS CHRIST” book…
We need to read our own Bibles! Friendly and healthy conversations with one another will challenge us to know what we do and do not believe in…Dont shrink back and just accept defeat…Search it out! Search the living God out who made Himself accessible to us through the blood of His Son, Christ Jesus who lives to make intercession for us right now! (Hebrews 7:25) He is for us! He’s on your side! Search Him out!
May He release grace to us all to go deeper as His deep calls our deep and may He increase His Spirit over us, through us, in us to gain understanding. In all our getting, get understanding! (Proverbs 3:7) In Jesus name, Father release the knowledge and  glory of who You are. Reveal to us, “Christ in us, hope of glory!” So be it according to Your will! Amen

 

 

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Keeping Momentum…

It’s an interesting concept…keeping momentum. I accidentally ran into this image while brainstorming for this blog and thought instantly; “Yes! Perfect!” I love the large blue sky. I feel as though I can almost breath in the crisp air! I look at this and think it’s slightly cool for some reason; the weather.

Anyway the concept of keeping momentum…it relates to how we walk out, work out the Faith. We get zeal during an event that may stir our insides, emotions and then what?  It’s typically spoken about how after a conference or event that touched your spirit and brought a fire in your bones, somehow slowly dwindles as day 2 after the event…day 4…day 5 comes along. What happened? “O yea, that was a cool weekend” then life as usual creeps in again and all the promises and vows and zeal to move forward for some reason, even with our genuine hearts goes away till the next event comes.

As I shared in the previous blog entry, the weekend of the EGW conference for me was a “resign up” of sorts. It was that whole, “Yes! I’m not alone in this! I remember why I’m fighting for this dream in His heart! I cant loose heart! Others are with us and ultimately, He is with us! …ok…I can do this again”

So I embarked on a journey the following week hoping for change. It was interesting cause I never made any set plans on what that would look like but I found myself not watching hours and hours of Television when I came home exhausted from work and put the prayer room or played some Misty Edwards “Relentless” in the background (which I just finally bought!).

What was more interesting was the fight. After such a high, you think, “I got it! Here we go!” But what I found was still my flesh raging even more wanting apathy. Over a week of not giving into my distracted outlets and yet how discouragement wanted to creep in as well as accusation. Then perhaps one of the suckiest (yes, yes it’s not a word, I know) weekends in a long time came along and my pea brain was dumfounded. “But I had such an intentional God-focused week” I thought and wrestled.

How quickly we think we’ve “earned” something. Now accusations and lies were presented by that little shoulder “angel” whose conveniently on your side every time you’re flesh is raging to win.

“See how you gave up your idle time but you had a more difficult time than you’ve had in a long time? You’ve had better weekends, better worship sets when you’ve just done what you’ve done before.” (Now listen to this mother of all conniving lies)

“Perhaps spending your week as you have, with occasional distraction, and leisure gives you better perspective of your depravity and helps your lean better on the Lord” -What a genius lie!

So I actually entertained that thought for a bit and went back to my days as usual. Not making the extra efforts the Holy Spirit had been beckoning for me to make since I’m always singing and telling Him I want to be closer to Him. (Which is really His genius way of moving my heart to make me think it was my genius idea to want more of Him! ::wink:: )

So I confided in my wonderful best friend who lives in another state right now and I told her everything that happened, how I felt, how I bombed ect…blah blah blah.

Apparently, she had been reading lately on David Brainerd and had some nice wise insight of truth to share with me .

TIME OUT: side note: I love how the Lord does that. The people in your inner circle, closest to you; how He directs our lives to be there for one another, when ones up and the others down and how life circumstances mirror momentary circumstances to help the other.

TIME IN:

So she says -paraphrasing, “You’re dark and wicked inside honey. So what! You gave up distractions like T.V. for a week. You’ve had years of these lesser pleasures and habits as a part of your life, it’s going to take more than a week after an awesome weekend to detox yourself from it all. What is better? Going back to it all and not going deeper cause you didnt FEEL something or that you gave up some things as an act of obedience to the Lord, whether you feel something later or not?”

At first in my mind and then aloud I said “Of course, yea, I know.” and changed the topic back to the point I was making previously. ::chuckle to myself cause I know He was giving me that loving grin cause I knew better::

Jeremy Johnson at our first EGW said how God looks down at us so affectionately sometimes and says “Aw my little pea brain…” Its so true and that stayed with me.

So the next day funny enough I met with a friend and was giving her advise and what do you think comes popping out of my mouth, the story and the same advise my best friend helped remind and teach me the night before.

I was so quick to think I “earned” something from that week of devotion. I was so quick to get discouraged and listen to the nonsense lies of my enemy and I was quick to forget that yes He calls me “lovely” but I am DARK! (Song of Solomon 1:5) I used to hate this part of a song when I was in my internship in Kansas City house of prayer.

I would raise my hands as my heart was tender until…

“You owe me nothing…(I stayed silent not repeating next line) You owe me nothing but You’ve given me mercy…”

It goes “You owe me nothing, I deserve hell…you owe me nothing but You’ve given me mercy”

That “I deserve hell” part REALLY bothered me. It made me mad in fact. I was saying to myself and the Lord, “I don’t deserve hell! Not anymore, I have You, I’m Yours! This is wrong!”

I didnt understand it at first cause no one ever taught it. The truth about our darkness. John says we love darkness rather than light. (John 3:19) Yes we put away the old man but we are still flesh and wicked minded and weak-this is part of the beauty of His love and sacrifice. We are to be poor in spirit (Matthew 5:3) cause we ARE poor in spirit and will struggle with reflecting His image till the day we’re face to face with Him! I never knew this. I also never read my Bible before. (years in ministry before my life changed after my encounter for 3 years in Kansas City)

1 Corinthians 13-Thats JESUS-Love is a Person!

It’s remembering that it’s about making a choice everyday. To God, with friendships, with my future spouse-every relationship reflects this. Choice dignifies Love (borrowed the phrase) and everyday it’s making a choice, choosing to say Yes, right now this moment. We’re too fickle to say a committed vow once and forever keep it. Everyday, every moment of the day we remember, saying, “I messed up in loving You in the past and I’ll probably mess up again but I wont dwell on that. Right here right now, how can I say Yes to loving You?”

It’s an action, it’s selfless, its a choice. The feeling is a gift and a curse. Our emotions are deceptive, and fleeting. We are flesh. But our spirit is in constant yearning in connection to God. Even if I dont feel it, I choose to love You.  In choice and action…

Keeping the Momentum…

It’s a fight! It’s a battleground! It’s fighting our natural resistance to being still. Waiting.

Someone dear to me emailed this today: (here’s a snippet)

Wait on the Lord -Psalm 27:14

“It may seem an easy thing to wait, but it is one of the postures that a Christian soldier cannot learn without years of teaching. Marching and quick-marching are much easier for God’s warriors than standing still. There are hours of perplexity when the most willing spirit, anxiously desiring to serve the Lord, does not know what role to play. Then what shall it do? Vex itself by despair? Retreat back in cowardice, turn to the right hand in fear, or rush forward in presumption? No, simply wait. Wait in prayer, however. Call upon God, and spread the matter before Him; tell Him your difficulty, and plead His promise of help.”

He is so gracious! So what does that look like? Go into your secret place (whatever that looks like) sit down focused and talk to Him. Genuinely talk to Him and then wait…listen…read about Him, then talk some more, then wait some more…

Now here’s the clincher…do this everyday…It’s hard cause we like being entertained. We’re selfish really, just own up to it already. We are! I lived my life for 4 years sitting in the place of prayer-His house and praying (loving on Him in my worship, my words and actions, letting Him delight in me and talking to Him, asking Him things about Him and my friends and family…ect) and I struggle with being still and praying…

This lifetime on earth right now is one big internship as Mike Bickle says. There’s no rush. It’s a marathon not a sprint.

This blog can go on forever so I’ll stop now. So yea…keeping the momentum…Grace to us all with this in Jesus name, amen!

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“DON’T STOP SINGING to ME!”

‘Revelation 4 & 5: The Lord says, “I LIKE MUSIC! This is why I pulled the veil back to show you what is around my throne.” The Lord say, “DON’T STOP SINGING to ME!”-David Futrell

David Futrell posted this on the IHOP Miami facebook site and it truly struck my heart. A concept so many of us think we know and truly get. It’s crazy cause much of what we know of God is head knowledge but true understanding hasnt set in yet. Even still there are and forever will be levels of understanding because of who God is and how vast the Holy of Holies is! Music is a person’s heart expression; passion manifested in a moving language ALL can feel, understand and experience.

It’s in our DNA because our Maker is enveloped in music, His creation.

“To worship You I live, I live to worship You…” -Matt Gilman’s Wednesday night team

Worship is a Lifestyle but there is no coincidence we are moved most when our expression of Worship is done through music, song. Even a dancer is moved by music, the singer flows with music.

It is our Heavenly DNA, “music” -our hearts come alive!

The Lord told David clearly as David was in the prayer room worshiping, contemplating, journaling… David said I like music and the Lord said with emphasis, “I LIKE MUSIC!”

Music is in us and we are so powerfully moved by music and we should be moved by it but  not from secular topics but those of fascination of the Man Jesus, God the Father of Glory and the Holy Spirit who gives us revelation into the mystery and Jesus!

I wont develop this much cause it wasn’t my revelation but it definitely hit me like an arrow… what’cha think?

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Much L<3Ve and Strawberries…like I said, not a fan of  Peaches! ::wink::

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