Keeping Momentum…

It’s an interesting concept…keeping momentum. I accidentally ran into this image while brainstorming for this blog and thought instantly; “Yes! Perfect!” I love the large blue sky. I feel as though I can almost breath in the crisp air! I look at this and think it’s slightly cool for some reason; the weather.

Anyway the concept of keeping momentum…it relates to how we walk out, work out the Faith. We get zeal during an event that may stir our insides, emotions and then what?  It’s typically spoken about how after a conference or event that touched your spirit and brought a fire in your bones, somehow slowly dwindles as day 2 after the event…day 4…day 5 comes along. What happened? “O yea, that was a cool weekend” then life as usual creeps in again and all the promises and vows and zeal to move forward for some reason, even with our genuine hearts goes away till the next event comes.

As I shared in the previous blog entry, the weekend of the EGW conference for me was a “resign up” of sorts. It was that whole, “Yes! I’m not alone in this! I remember why I’m fighting for this dream in His heart! I cant loose heart! Others are with us and ultimately, He is with us! …ok…I can do this again”

So I embarked on a journey the following week hoping for change. It was interesting cause I never made any set plans on what that would look like but I found myself not watching hours and hours of Television when I came home exhausted from work and put the prayer room or played some Misty Edwards “Relentless” in the background (which I just finally bought!).

What was more interesting was the fight. After such a high, you think, “I got it! Here we go!” But what I found was still my flesh raging even more wanting apathy. Over a week of not giving into my distracted outlets and yet how discouragement wanted to creep in as well as accusation. Then perhaps one of the suckiest (yes, yes it’s not a word, I know) weekends in a long time came along and my pea brain was dumfounded. “But I had such an intentional God-focused week” I thought and wrestled.

How quickly we think we’ve “earned” something. Now accusations and lies were presented by that little shoulder “angel” whose conveniently on your side every time you’re flesh is raging to win.

“See how you gave up your idle time but you had a more difficult time than you’ve had in a long time? You’ve had better weekends, better worship sets when you’ve just done what you’ve done before.” (Now listen to this mother of all conniving lies)

“Perhaps spending your week as you have, with occasional distraction, and leisure gives you better perspective of your depravity and helps your lean better on the Lord” -What a genius lie!

So I actually entertained that thought for a bit and went back to my days as usual. Not making the extra efforts the Holy Spirit had been beckoning for me to make since I’m always singing and telling Him I want to be closer to Him. (Which is really His genius way of moving my heart to make me think it was my genius idea to want more of Him! ::wink:: )

So I confided in my wonderful best friend who lives in another state right now and I told her everything that happened, how I felt, how I bombed ect…blah blah blah.

Apparently, she had been reading lately on David Brainerd and had some nice wise insight of truth to share with me .

TIME OUT: side note: I love how the Lord does that. The people in your inner circle, closest to you; how He directs our lives to be there for one another, when ones up and the others down and how life circumstances mirror momentary circumstances to help the other.


So she says -paraphrasing, “You’re dark and wicked inside honey. So what! You gave up distractions like T.V. for a week. You’ve had years of these lesser pleasures and habits as a part of your life, it’s going to take more than a week after an awesome weekend to detox yourself from it all. What is better? Going back to it all and not going deeper cause you didnt FEEL something or that you gave up some things as an act of obedience to the Lord, whether you feel something later or not?”

At first in my mind and then aloud I said “Of course, yea, I know.” and changed the topic back to the point I was making previously. ::chuckle to myself cause I know He was giving me that loving grin cause I knew better::

Jeremy Johnson at our first EGW said how God looks down at us so affectionately sometimes and says “Aw my little pea brain…” Its so true and that stayed with me.

So the next day funny enough I met with a friend and was giving her advise and what do you think comes popping out of my mouth, the story and the same advise my best friend helped remind and teach me the night before.

I was so quick to think I “earned” something from that week of devotion. I was so quick to get discouraged and listen to the nonsense lies of my enemy and I was quick to forget that yes He calls me “lovely” but I am DARK! (Song of Solomon 1:5) I used to hate this part of a song when I was in my internship in Kansas City house of prayer.

I would raise my hands as my heart was tender until…

“You owe me nothing…(I stayed silent not repeating next line) You owe me nothing but You’ve given me mercy…”

It goes “You owe me nothing, I deserve hell…you owe me nothing but You’ve given me mercy”

That “I deserve hell” part REALLY bothered me. It made me mad in fact. I was saying to myself and the Lord, “I don’t deserve hell! Not anymore, I have You, I’m Yours! This is wrong!”

I didnt understand it at first cause no one ever taught it. The truth about our darkness. John says we love darkness rather than light. (John 3:19) Yes we put away the old man but we are still flesh and wicked minded and weak-this is part of the beauty of His love and sacrifice. We are to be poor in spirit (Matthew 5:3) cause we ARE poor in spirit and will struggle with reflecting His image till the day we’re face to face with Him! I never knew this. I also never read my Bible before. (years in ministry before my life changed after my encounter for 3 years in Kansas City)

1 Corinthians 13-Thats JESUS-Love is a Person!

It’s remembering that it’s about making a choice everyday. To God, with friendships, with my future spouse-every relationship reflects this. Choice dignifies Love (borrowed the phrase) and everyday it’s making a choice, choosing to say Yes, right now this moment. We’re too fickle to say a committed vow once and forever keep it. Everyday, every moment of the day we remember, saying, “I messed up in loving You in the past and I’ll probably mess up again but I wont dwell on that. Right here right now, how can I say Yes to loving You?”

It’s an action, it’s selfless, its a choice. The feeling is a gift and a curse. Our emotions are deceptive, and fleeting. We are flesh. But our spirit is in constant yearning in connection to God. Even if I dont feel it, I choose to love You.  In choice and action…

Keeping the Momentum…

It’s a fight! It’s a battleground! It’s fighting our natural resistance to being still. Waiting.

Someone dear to me emailed this today: (here’s a snippet)

Wait on the Lord -Psalm 27:14

“It may seem an easy thing to wait, but it is one of the postures that a Christian soldier cannot learn without years of teaching. Marching and quick-marching are much easier for God’s warriors than standing still. There are hours of perplexity when the most willing spirit, anxiously desiring to serve the Lord, does not know what role to play. Then what shall it do? Vex itself by despair? Retreat back in cowardice, turn to the right hand in fear, or rush forward in presumption? No, simply wait. Wait in prayer, however. Call upon God, and spread the matter before Him; tell Him your difficulty, and plead His promise of help.”

He is so gracious! So what does that look like? Go into your secret place (whatever that looks like) sit down focused and talk to Him. Genuinely talk to Him and then wait…listen…read about Him, then talk some more, then wait some more…

Now here’s the clincher…do this everyday…It’s hard cause we like being entertained. We’re selfish really, just own up to it already. We are! I lived my life for 4 years sitting in the place of prayer-His house and praying (loving on Him in my worship, my words and actions, letting Him delight in me and talking to Him, asking Him things about Him and my friends and family…ect) and I struggle with being still and praying…

This lifetime on earth right now is one big internship as Mike Bickle says. There’s no rush. It’s a marathon not a sprint.

This blog can go on forever so I’ll stop now. So yea…keeping the momentum…Grace to us all with this in Jesus name, amen!

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OVERDUE: Apologies: Update anyone?

To even attempt to fill you all in on everything since my last post would just turn into a novel and half way through, you all will tune out so; here’s a quick recap with some current events.

We moved locations and are now in the Kendall area which is heavenly for me being that I now live 5 minutes from the prayer room but my heart goes out to so many we connected from further north past Doral, who find our new location too far south for regular visits.

There’s something so intimate and quaint about this new location. I think it speaks so much in the sense of where each of us as staff are; mentally, spiritually. Yes, it’s very RED but it’s also very soothing, and intimate and just has this feel to it.

Since the change, in the mean time while waiting for things to have settled again, the Lord made it clear for me to work in the marketplace again. Specifically my Mom’s company; help her out. The Lord used an old mentor whose on the IHOP-KC leadership. He wisely suggested (though I wasnt technically happy about it at the moment-I was already a Full Time Intercessory Missionary for the past 4 years) that since we dont momentarily have enough ministry work to keep me from becoming idle, then I should work while still helping out the House of Prayer. He was speaking specifically into my life since I was under his leadership for a time. It’s what he felt from the Lord and what he also gathered and knew about as person.

Carlos and Emily Sarmiento

I eventually gave in cause not coincidentally enough, my Mother needed the help and felt from the Lord that I should for a season work with her. Hm! A season! I thought a short 3 months one. We’re on month 7 and a half.

Anyway, this weekend as you see from picture above was our (IHOP Miami) 3rd ENCOUNTER GOD WEEKEND! The Director of Orlando House of Prayer, his wife and a team of about 12 others came with them. I was overwhelmed with joy.

The Orlando House of Prayer has 27 full time Intercessory Missionaries. What is that, you say?

Quoting OHOP:

What is an intercessory missionary? We refer to our full-time staff at the Orlando House of Prayer as “intercessory missionaries.” They raise their own support to work as full-time missionaries who reach out to others from a lifestyle of prayer and worship. Today, we have about 27 who serve full-time, investing forty hours per week, as they go from the prayer room and then to ministry outreaches and works of service. Also, as those who are committed to the forerunner message, we are preparing ourselves to prepare others for the unique dynamics of the generation in which the Lord returns.

They are such an encouragement. I dont get it, it can truly only be the Spirit of God, but they have such a love for little ol’ IHOP Miami which is currently 3 staff members who’ve been through A LOT in the past year and a half. They have taken us under their wing like IHOP-KC has taken them. This weekend, something shifted and I feel as though hearts clicked and truly awoke to what God is doing. He is building a culture of prayer with in the body through raising Houses of Prayer and prayer rooms throughout the world in order to unify the body and bring her back to her identity. (2 of many reasons)

Isaiah 56:7

Even them I will bring to My holy mountain,
And make them joyful in My house of prayer.
Their burnt offerings and their sacrifices
Will be accepted on My altar;
For My house shall be called a house of prayer for all nations.”

Matthew 21:13

And He said to them, “It is written, ‘My house shall be called a house of prayer, but you have made it a ‘den of thieves.’

O! How I miss FALL!

My heart is aching. My heart feels the beckoning from my spirit, wanting to be full time in the House of the Lord again. Marketplace work was never my cup of tea. Yes everyone would prefer to do something else, but to explain, I’ve always been creative. Theater, Dance, Music, loved it all. Went to school for it a short while and went through admissions for Film School and other schools as well. Straight out of High School, I went into administrative work for over 5 years and dreaded. It wasnt in my DNA. Business is in my Mother’s but definitely not mine. Thankfully even when I attempted to pursue and saturate myself in the Artistic world, the Lord had different plans which I am grateful for because those plans changed my entire life.

I led worship, I was a “deacon”, “youth leader” for years in ministry before and though I genuinely wanted to love the Lord even though I had no idea how to do that rightly or even how to rightly pursue that with the correct paradigms of GOD , but I really wanted to love him but there was lack of confidence. Lack of confidence in knowing really and truly who I was, who He said I was, what He thought about me. The emotions of His heart, the desires of His heart, and confidence of where this is all heading, the end of the story and the what with the why’s were all non-existent to me.

After being in KC for 3 years and doing the internship, being on Staff everything

IHOP KC Prayer Room

changed. I knew that maybe not fully but deep inside I believed He was real, this was real and it was so much more than I ever knew. There was so much more to this Christianity and no one told me cause they couldnt offer what they didnt themselves have.

During my internship, I was truly reading the Word for the first time ever and realized all I was missing. I really liked Him and He really likes me. My quirks and all my specialness that rarely anyone but those closest to me see. This was treasure that no one could ever take away from me and I was now confident to stand on it and pray for grace to be immovable.

All this from being immersed in a culture of Prayer. God told me this! God showed me and confirmed His word, not man. Yes, man was used to speak a message about God but it was all those hours in the prayer room, just Him and I, wrestling with truths that offended me cause I’d never heard them before. Feeling those encounters that mere words could never do justice. He did it all cause I sat, and waited, and was still, waiting to KNOW He is GOD!

So for an update, here is all my random ramblings. ::grin:: I will keep this updated more frequently with all things IHOPMIAMI and my own current events as an Intercessory Missionary!

Bless you all! I pray for a deep encounter with the Majesty of Heaven that shakes off all things that hinder love for the sake of Love in your life. May you be ruined for anything else but Him and may the cry of David rise in our generation:

Psalm 132

1 LORD, remember David
And all his afflictions;
2 How he swore to the LORD,
And vowed to the Mighty One of Jacob:
3 “Surely I will not go into the chamber of my house,
Or go up to the comfort of my bed;
4 I will not give sleep to my eyes
Or slumber to my eyelids,
5 Until I find a place for the LORD,
A dwelling place for the Mighty One of Jacob



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Jesus’ Return and the Rapture-same event!

the gathering of the church…

As we get closer due to the signs of the times to comings days right before Jesus’ return… Many in the body of believers believe that before His, (Jesus’) coming they will be gathered, raptured before the Tribulation… Though some believing this when the Tribulation begins, will not fall away after they realize He is not to return yet, MANY in the faith will grow cold and be offended with God and fall away…the end of Matthew 24:15 Jesus says (whoever reads, let him understand).

That the Lord would right now release a spirit of wisdom and revelation, enlighten the eyes of our understanding to know! (Ephesians 1:17-19)

Jesus said in Matthew 24: 21-24

For then there will be a great tribulation such as has not been since the beginning of the world until this time, no, nore ever shall be.

And unless those days were shortened, no flesh would be saved; but for the ELECT’s sake those days will be shortened.

You can search in concordance the world ELECT and it speaks of God’s chosen, believers, Christian believers…No flesh, person would endure, who can endure it says the Word (Joel 2:11), none would unless those days were shortened but for His people, His chosen ones, followers of Christ, for them, our sakes, those days will be shortened. CLUE#1

…For false christs and false prophets will rise and show great signs and wonders to decieve, if possible, even the elect.


verse 25: see I (Jesus) have told you beforehand…

Studying Daniel 9, the book of Revelation, the gospels, ect.. we know that clearly once the AntiChrist, son of perdition, the lawless one comes into the scene and makes a covenant, peace treaty with Israel and the nations, the 7 years (the Tribulation) begin before Jesus returns…In the middle of the week, times, time, and half a time (3 1/2 year mark of the 7 final years, the Anti Christ breaks the covenant and shows his true colors to everyone, the Great Tribulation begins and there are 3 1/2 years till Jesus rips through the sky…)


Matthew 24:29-31

Immediately after the tribulation of those days the sun will be darkened, and the moon will not give it’s light; the stars will fall from heaven, and the powers of the heavens will be shaken. THEN the sign of the Son of Man will appear in heaven, and then all the tribes of the earth will mourn, and they will see the Son of Man coming on the clouds of heaven with power and great glory. And He (Jesus) will send His angels with a great sound of a trumpet, and they will gather together His elect (believers, God’s chosen) from the four winds, from one end of heaven to the other.

1 Corinthians 15:51-52

Behold, I tell you a mystery. We shall not all sleep (die) but we shall all be changed (resurrected body after Jesus’ returns) in a moment, in the twinkling of an eye, at the LAST TRUMPET. For the TRUMPET will sound, and the dead will be raised incorruptible, and we shall be changed.

1 Thessalonians 4:13-17

But I do not want you to be ignorant brethren, concerning those have fallen asleep (passed away, died) for fear that (lest) you sorrow as others who have no hope. For if we believe that Jesus died and rose again, even so God will bring WITH Him those who sleep in Jesus.

For this we say to you by the word of the Lord, that we who are alive and remain until the coming of the Lord (those of us Paul is saying, believers who live through and remain, endure until not the days before the Day of the Lord -His return but until the coming Day of the Lord) will by no means precede those who are asleep.

For the Lord Himself will descend from heaven with a SHOUT, with the vouce of an archangel, and with the TRUMPET of God. And the dead in Christ will rise first. Then WE who are alive and remain shall be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air! And thus we shall always be with Him!

In context to the Word, there is only ONE time Jesus will appear in the sky, and EVERY eye will see! And the Word says that at the same time as He appears coming on a cloud will He rapture, gather His believers…

Verse 18: Therefore, comfort one another with these words...

Holy Spirit, you who searches truth in us, reveal it to us! (1 Corinthians 2:10)

For some who have taught about the Left Behind series which is referenced with Matthew 24:36-44 …When a teacher explained this to me, I could see it in context…

Just think how Jesus is explaining in context to what He’s talking about… He references as in the days of Noah so will be the coming of the Son of Man.

verse 39: ..(the people who were warned) were eating, drinking, and marrying…and did not know until the flood came and took them all away, (took who away, and who remained-the ones who did not give themselves to God or believe the coming judgments and the ones who remained were the righteous, faithful in the ark with Noah)

So in context to that right after the Lord explains how for example, two will be in the field, one will be Taken (as in the days of Noah-the unrighteous were taken away with the flood) and the other left (like Noah who remained during the flood)

I believe this parable and speaks more than trying to explain the rapture, I feel it’s talking more of not knowing the day or hour and how the Lord will come as lightening comes from the east and flashes to the west (Matthew 24:27)

Phillippians 1:9-10

And this I pray, that your love may abound still more and more in knowledge and all discernment that you may approve the things that are excellent, that you may be sincere and without Offense till the day of Christ…

My hope is that this encouraged your faith and was good resource to stand confidently and firming in what you believe and maybe you had different understanding of the coming day of the Lord and our meeting Him in the sky… I pray this was edifiying!

In the end, we also pray if many still do not believe we will be here for the coming tribulation that your love for Him and faith is rooted and offense will not allow hearts to grow cold in those coming days! In the end, it all comes down to love, and thats what we seek! Psalm 27:4 =)


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I know the end of the story…

Medley’s from this morning’s Prayer Room:

“I know the end of the story, I’ll come up from wilderness leaning on my Beloved…”

“and all I want, is to be near You, with You, where You are…”

“…I am lovesick…”

I am sitting here and I will say honestly, these past two week were extremely difficult. It was that ebb and flow season taking effect and with an entire community feeling it, the heaviness was discouraging. I felt almost numb in the prayer room every day and just couldn’t get into the spirit of prayer or be moved by Him, which is insane you’d say, I know!

The end of last week the heaviness switched from personal discouragement to feeling what He feels and feeling the jealousy for the hearts of everyone around me.

Coming in Monday I was wondering what it was going to look like. The weekend was scattered and mainly a time of rest from migraines, fatigue, ect…

Sitting here I was writing in my journal asking Him to break in our hearts and take us to that place where our hearts, mind feel Him and want nothing else. He is so faithful.

Sitting here listening to first the Jon Thurlow set at 8am-10am then Tim Reihmerr set 10am-12pm my heart came alive and I stopped everything and sat, waiting on Him, soaking, singing over Him my love and waiting. After this past few weeks of difficulty and discouragement I knew again with all confidence… there is no where else I want to be and nothing else I would rather be doing. I miss Jesus every moment I dont feel Him near (He’s always there, I’m the one who isn’t always there with Him, I walked off to roam)  This feeling of being drenched in His love, feeling completely enveloped, strengthened, and driven in Him…Wanting to live pursuing Him and these intimate encounters with Him.

I was telling Him this morning that when I finally see Him face to face, I want to look at Him and know and feel that I KNOW Him, truly know Him… not just be in awe before Glory but feel like I know this friend before me cause we’ve talked, I searched everything I could find on Him to know Him and sought to spend time with Him. I want to see Him and know in me that I KNOW Him, this Man I am betrothed to.

As I sit in the prayer room, I remember why I’m here… “this is why we’re here God, we want to be with you…”

My desire, the reason I get up every morning and come here even when it’s hard is cause I want to be with Him and this place keeps me accountable and surrounded with Him where I can not run away to the distractions of this world and second is, cause I desire everyone in this community (first, then I’ll reach further, the city, the state, our nation) to feel this, want this, and have grace to give themselves to it!

I know the end of the story, I’ll come up from the wilderness leaning on my Beloved…His love is written on my heart, stronger than the grave, nothing can quench it, and there truly is no better love than this… (Songs of Songs)

I pray for grace for all who encounter this moment, this blog and hope for grace that you may draw near to Him for He is faithful and desires to draw near to you… that His word would run swiftly and be glorified in your hearts and lives… may He direct your hearts toward TRUE love and revive you with a holy transformation of light that will ruin you for anything else…

Blessings and Grace!

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Run to the House of God…

“Run to the House of God, in His presence, there is Freedom…”

I’m sitting in the prayer room this Monday morning and as usual the weekend has passed, idle hibernation and the week begins again.

I can not express enough how grateful I am that my current job is to come to the House of the Lord and sit before Him as He kneads and fashions my heart to be more like Him; giving me grace to believe everyday who He says I am, walk it out and love Him more.

Just like with any relationship, it takes being intentional with the one you choose to Love. Getting to know them, making the time to put all else aside and sit with them, talk to them, be with them and share your heart with them-then in that, do we fall in love with them more and more each passing day, each  new encounter.

The Lord has already shared His heart and secrets…in the Word! the Bible… and yet with all that, still… “No eye has seen and no ear has heard the things which He (God, Jesus) has for those who Love Him.”

It never ends, getting to know Him…may our hearts burn, yearning to know Him, and in wanting, actually taking action and doing it…Run to the House of God and seek Him, get to know Him!

It’s not a magic pill you take or a phrase you say and thats it…

It’s like those guys you see in movies, sitting in front of the TV, chugging down a beer, belching at the football game and the woman he’s dating just starring at him, hoping. She asks, “You love me?”

The man on the couch not even taking a beat to look over at her replies, “Yea, I love ya” … cricket cricket….

Sure, he keeps trying to tell her and assure her that he loves her but his actions say nothing of the sort. He’s not intentional toward loving her… God the Father loved us SO much that He gave….He gave… Love is a choice!

Choice dignifies Love…Choice proceeds with ACTION… we do it all the time with the newest “crush”. We do it all the time with our spouses, and latest flings… And yet, we are dumbfounded at how to get closer to God and know Him more.

Was your relationship easy? Did it require willing sacrifice that didn’t feel like sacrifice at all? Did you tell your friends, “Not today” so you could be or pursue to be with the one you liked, loved?

If your “crush”, boyfriend, girlfriend, spouse gave you a journal that told you SO much about who they are, why they are who they are, the way they are…their secrets and past history… Would you not read it? Eat it up in one night if you could?

Are you seeing the simplistic beauty of loving God? Jesus, the one who’ll love you like NO other will ever?

“It’s better to take refuge in You, so much better to take refuge in You..” Luke Woods prayer room team

My house will be called a House of Prayer … make them joyful in My house of prayer! -Isaiah 56:7

Run to the House of God! Where ever that is-what ever state you’re in, city; find a House of Prayer and run to it! Find it and take refuge in it! The Lord will and is restoring prayer in the believers of Jesus! As we worship (agree with who He is) and pray (agree with what He already said He wants to do) we will become one with Him and in His house of prayer, one with each other and fall more in fascination, in Love with this Man…Jesus is fully MAN and fully GOD! He’s coming back forever as a MAN! This man is our Bridegroom who is fighting for you day and night, He makes intercession for you day and night! (Hebrews 7:25)

Make the decision today. Forget yesterday, what you did, said…forget last years mistakes or negligence. Don’t worry about tomorrow (Matthew 6:34) but how can you say “YES” to Him today, right now… Just like in a relationship, it’s you leaving work, or your friends, buying the person you care for their favorite snack, drink, flowers and showing up, surprising them and just telling them you missed them, thought about them, love them… He LOVES the little things! He even writes in His book of remembrance every time we gather together as people and talk about Him…how beautiful and awesome is that! (Malachi 3:16-17)

…well all, going back to song writing… Bless you all

Much L<3Ve and Strawberries ….I love chocolate covered strawberries…just saying…. ::wink::

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I HAVE to share this!

If anyone actually reads this BLOG then I NEED to share this! Normally you’ll read my natural banter of thoughts and heart jealousy for the Bride’s affections for the Bridegroom and in essence, yes! I am still going to share that only, I am actually going to reiterate notes from a teaching at one of the houses of Prayer.

This  is such a crucial fundamental principle that I am eager for all in the House of Prayer here to hear, study, receive this truth!

Teachings called: Apostle John: 3 fold spiritual identity

There are 5 pages of notes and I’m only going to share short points from the last page. Below I’m going to share the links to the notes and VIDEO teaching.

“We must see ourselves differently and change our confession before God. We are those who are loved by Jesus, who lean on His heart and who boldly press into Him to receive His secrets.

Even in our weakness, we are the ones that He deeply loves rather than the ones who are disqualified. He delights in us and considers us lovely and longs to give Himself to us.

We confess, “I am Your beloved, Your favorite one. Your delight is in me. You desire me. You feel about me like the Father feels about You. I belong to You, my Beloved, and You are mind.

*As the Father loved Me, I also have loves you; abide in My love. (John 15:9)

*He delivered me because He delighted in me (Ps. 18:19)

*I am my Beloved’s and my Beloved is mine (Song 6:3)

Next, we set our heart to live as a extravagant lover of Jesus

Then, we commit to position ourselves to receive from His heart by feeding on His Word!

We must agree with john’s confession, I’m loved and am a lover therefore I am successful!

These confession summarize our spiritual identity. We do not define our lives by our struggles. We are not despised of God and hopeless hypocrites. We must live by our spiritual identity (what we look like to God) instead of our natural identity (what we look like to others)”

::end of insert::

Dude, John who knew his identity in Jesus, of ALL the things on his “resume” :i.e. writing 5 books in the WORD of God, friend of Peter, Paul and Mary, Jesus’ mother… Ephesus revival, bishop of  the great revival city of Ephesus…

Of ALL the things he could have referred to regarding himself, he only regarded himself as the “disciple (not apostle, not son of thunder; the disciple) whom Jesus loved”

That’s powerful and John did NOT start out well. Peter was outspoken, but John was zealously of a wrong spirit. He was rebuked 3 times…He didn’t start out well, but there was hope! 70 years later John’s spirit was soooo different. The disciple who leaned on his beloved’s heart! He was the one whom Jesus loved! That was his PRIMARY reward! secondary was ministry, gifts, ect… but his IDENTITY was his primary reward, Jesus, our inheritance!

I encourage you to check out the material!

Much blessings all! 🙂


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Only as a Lifestyle can we survive

Things are not okay right now, and they wont be till You come back”

The weekends always seem to be the hardest for me. Idleness is so easy to creep in. Usually I’m so tired by the time the weekend comes that I hibernate all weekend cutting myself off from all communication.

I watch the TV shows, I have seen the movies, I’ve read the empty magazines and lives of those in the limelight and “things are not okay right now.”

Life as we know it right now; things as they are are NOT okay. We’re walking around wounded, desperate, desiring, hungry, empty, searching and we’re looking for these things to get “fixed” with the things this world feeds us, tells us to fill ourselves with.
We’re convinced that the soothing, calming effects of alcohol, a night dancing your stress away and pleasuring your eyes with some eye candy at a club, finding the closest things we could to “love” in an intimate partner we barely know and are not committed to through the covenant of marriage…we’re convinced through media,Movies unrealistic endings of life in 2 hours, the music videos, the artist we are told to look up to cause their lives seems so amazing compared to our mundane everyday, we’re convinced, they are the answer. That’s the pursuit of happiness, again kudos to the unrealistic facade of the “American Dream.”

Now we have angry drunks, woman murdering babies for the cost of their constant sexual empty pleasures, we have pornographers abusing children, little girls and boys, drugs being used to trap the mind of people who are running away from life, we live by the motto that we’re “EVOLVING” and everything should be allowed.

It's alluring, I know! We're so gullable for eye catching attraction!

Yes! all things are allowed…heck we CAN do whatever the heck we want…but where as a society, as a people has that gotten us? What has allowing us to year by year, push the envelope to see how far we can decline as people, as a society, gotten us?  How FAR do you really want this to go cause in 5 more years, like this; men will be able to rape children on the street and people just pass by feeling nothing about it, it not even phasing them. Murder will be a way to get even with someone with no consequence. Education will be pointless and not necessary for the pursuit of pleasure in life.

How far do you really want to take this cause it’s getting there. What wasnt allowed and considered immoral 5 years ago has become more and more increasingly permissible in the eyes of everyone. Why are 14 year olds talking about sex, allowed to watch movies PG13 that due to their context used to be considered rated R 10 years ago?

Things are NOT okay right now and my heart aches for my friends who have in the church been led to live lives just like everyone else does and it’s considered okay. Now they have found no difference with the world and church so have just given up church and God to live “easier” lives in the world.

Church betrayed, hurt them or were just to hypocritical to continue attending and the genius plan of our nemesis is that we say we’re upset with the church, NOT God…but yet, we have turned from Him and everything He stands for. We chose to be the Harlot who says she loves and is married to her Husband but continues to chase other lovers, broken cisterns, satisfaction for their emptiness in life in through the empty traps this world offers and cunningly lies to you about.

We are all weak and the moment we underestimate that, we’re in BIG trouble. Weekend after weekend as I fall into idleness and Monday comes along where I get to go back to the Prayer Room to be purged and soak I have realized…Looking at my friends status on social networks and seeing how happy they think they are because they finally rid themselves of religion and have found momentary satisfactions that seem to be the answer…as I examine the state of the Body of Christ and wonder why are even churches being led by good, God fearing teachers of the Word still falling apart and filled with struggling Christians?

Why is the Prayer Room or Mission movements like YWAM places where MANY (thousands) of young people (avg. 15-30) choosing to live their lives in prayer and worship, fasting and missions for the poor and needy as their sole occupation and ongoing lifestyle in the pursuit of GOD? Whats the difference cause I don’t want to disregard churches…

LIFESTYLE… thats what hit me this morning…LIFESTYLE…It’s cause, it’s not receiving potentially a Great Word on Sunday and then living life as usual the other 5-6 days a week (some go to a youth group or some sort of ministry activity another day in the week)

I’m in the prayer room 5 days a week (almost all day) and then the weekend comes…2 1/2 days of life as “usual” and I get pummeled those 2 days with weakness, idleness… how much more with 5-6 days a week free of anything God related…sure we say we’re seeking Him in our time at home  and I’m no one to judge someones personal relationship with the Lord but this I will say and I say this through experience as well…

If things were truly getting done at home on our own…why is there no change in the church (the people, the Body of Christ)? Why are things declining to even greater immorality even within the Church. Paul prayed for the Church of Ephesus (city) to get anointed by the Spirit and when a church in just one little city was anointed, ALL of Asia encountered the living GOD and was saved!

This nation would NOT be in the state it’s in if everyone in the Body was truly tending to their Husband at home… and we can only go farther TOGETHER than we can ever alone. Ephesians 3:16-19 That we the Body would comprehend with ALL the saints….ALL…what is the width, height, length and depth of His love! Together will we experience and receive the Fullness of GOD!

What is making thousands of young people CHOOSE to live a life of prayer, fasting, missions as a preparation to Jesus’ return? Living a lifestyle in the Lord which will NOT look anything like this world’s concept of living.

I have said much and I’ll leave it at this for now… Much BLESSINGS!

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‘Revelation 4 & 5: The Lord says, “I LIKE MUSIC! This is why I pulled the veil back to show you what is around my throne.” The Lord say, “DON’T STOP SINGING to ME!”-David Futrell

David Futrell posted this on the IHOP Miami facebook site and it truly struck my heart. A concept so many of us think we know and truly get. It’s crazy cause much of what we know of God is head knowledge but true understanding hasnt set in yet. Even still there are and forever will be levels of understanding because of who God is and how vast the Holy of Holies is! Music is a person’s heart expression; passion manifested in a moving language ALL can feel, understand and experience.

It’s in our DNA because our Maker is enveloped in music, His creation.

“To worship You I live, I live to worship You…” -Matt Gilman’s Wednesday night team

Worship is a Lifestyle but there is no coincidence we are moved most when our expression of Worship is done through music, song. Even a dancer is moved by music, the singer flows with music.

It is our Heavenly DNA, “music” -our hearts come alive!

The Lord told David clearly as David was in the prayer room worshiping, contemplating, journaling… David said I like music and the Lord said with emphasis, “I LIKE MUSIC!”

Music is in us and we are so powerfully moved by music and we should be moved by it but  not from secular topics but those of fascination of the Man Jesus, God the Father of Glory and the Holy Spirit who gives us revelation into the mystery and Jesus!

I wont develop this much cause it wasn’t my revelation but it definitely hit me like an arrow… what’cha think?


Much L<3Ve and Strawberries…like I said, not a fan of  Peaches! ::wink::

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“Your Merciful Grace always heals me…”

Morning thoughts on Healing…

The past few days I’ve been suffering a lot of back pain. Since I was young I have always suffered back pain but there would be periods of time that were worse than others.

In the past year, the really bad days have been more few than many. I almost got used to not having the past weeks. Yesterday and today have been the worse in a long time.

I woke up this morning and I was driving to the prayer room wondering for a split second, “Lord why don’t you heal when we pray?”

That all came about before when I thought about my back pain and thought about praying for someone we know whose a drummer and has needed prayer for back pain. I was thinking, what if He said, “Would you be willing to take on his pain because you are praying for his healing… if he was healed would you be willing to carry that?” and I thought, “Well it would suck, let’s be honest, but if You asked me to, yes I would.”

Then my moment of why aren’t we getting healed when we pray Lord?!

Then it hit me… It’s not about getting frustrated, hurt or angry at God but wondering how far off are we the Body of Christ that we pray so much and still people don’t get healed… and even the one genuine man with faith cant be released fully when he prays cause then the Body would gaze on a man and not GOD!

He said greater works than these, He said He’d pour out His Spirit over ALL flesh but as we contend day after day and discouragement settles in (it did for me), desiring evermore that the Church, the Body of Jesus Christ (Everyone professing Jesus) come together as ONE mind, one heart-seeking first the kingdom and His righteousness! Loving what He loves and hating what He hates. Then He can trust us to steward these outpourings of His Spirit’s supernatural provision (financially, healing, spiritual condition, ect…)

That’s just one of my thoughts…onward to the next…new blog!

Much L<3Ve and Strawberries…

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SLOW to speak, Quick to listen…Watch & Pray

There is No goodness in me, apart from You!

I have been very heavy hearted the past few days. I was told He was going to build and mature a certain gift in me in this new season. I placed the thought and word on a “shelf” and planned to leave it there for however long He chose to have it there then reveal, if He chose to reveal it at all to be honest. That’s all we can do when it comes to things we are told by people who love or may love and know the secrets of the Lord’s heart. Since we can never be too sure, we take what was told to us, place it on a shelf and leave it to the Lord to reveal if He pleases. If He really wants you to know, trust me, YOU’LL KNOW!

I feel a million thoughts and ideas of weight bearing in my heart lately. It has seemed different things I encounter, whether a book I’m reading in the Word or a teaching, or a conversation; He is definitely saying something here, (God) and the part I am not sure of is whether what I feel or am perceiving are indeed discerning revelations from the Spirit or just my own opinions. They weigh down so much I normally would want to discuss it and see what other people think but I think He (God) is trying to teach me something here. Funny enough a man of God I admire tweeted something in the midst of this swirl that made me think more into these thoughts and feelings.

“He tells us to be slow to speak & quick to listen. What does that say about Him? Could it be He’s not saying as much as we claim He’s saying?”

James 1:19 “Beloved…let EVERY man be swift (moving fast, speedily) to hear (listen) SLOW to speak, and slow to get angry for the wrath of man does not produce the righteousness of God…”

I’m always the Momma bird, quick to see danger and want to jump in and FIX everything, save everyone. (I’m always thinking I’m suppose to do God’s job for Him…ouch! I know…)

I think He wants to reveal things to me but cant until He teaches my zealous butt to hold in, contemplate what He’s sharing, sit before Him, still letting Him be God. Sitting sit before Him so my brain would STOP talking, rationalizing, and truly LISTEN to what the Spirit is saying which I think I’m realizing the phrase, “The Spirit is ALWAYS speaking” isnt accurate. The Spirit ALWAYS has something to say but doesn’t mean He’s always speaking. He’s being the very example of Wisdom He is asking us to walk in. A wise man speaks few words, a fool speaks many words! (Proverbs)

In my prayer life especially in the Prayer Room, I havent always felt that I needed to always be productive (which is true) but thinking that if I’m not studying, or truly DOING something to further my depth with Him and if I were just sitting there waiting with my eyes closed soaking, I was wasting time I could be using to be in the Word, getting to know Him, stirring myself up to pray!

And me sitting there, soaking, being still and letting Him BE God is not NOT being productive! We always think WE have something to say, better to say. Sometimes we just need to hold our tongue and talk to Him inwardly about things. Love…Watch… and PRAY!

In the prayer room right now and I sing along…

a fellow Forerunner sitting in the Prayer Room comes to me sharing the Word, we pray and he tells me that he feels towards me the Lord saying, “Do Not Worry… whatever you’re fretting on, do not worry…”

Isn’t the Lord beautiful!? And as my best friend blogged earlier, “a conspicuous Genius”

Much L<3Ve and Strawberries

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